Everyone keeps telling me not to be so depressed about my dad. He died a little over two months ago, how else am I supposed to feel?
I go out on my days off. Spend hours in the sun. I have a pretty good time.
Then I have to come to work. And it's the same miserable people. There is no communication at all. I have to redo work I already completed. Then they bitch about how I'm not done.
I tell them ways that I can finish quicker, they say okay but nothing changes.
My co-workers are only interested in fucking everyone. It's a circle here. I keep to myself, I don't want to be apart of them or their crap.
Never in my life have I worked with people like this. Making up stories about you just so they have something to talk about.
I know in every work place people sleep with each other and gossip. But even one of my managers agrees with me she's never worked with such despicable people.
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I am happy that I got the chance to know my dad and know that he loved me. It could have been much worse, but I only got 5 years. 5 years and we were finally starting to understand each other. As soon as we really understood, he dies.
And I hate my mom for that.
Most of my friends have been asses to me recently. I post things on Facebook and they will come back with something negative to say.
My job sucks because mostly everyone hates me there.
Why?
I'm guessing the guys are mad that I won't sleep with any of them and the women because they think that I want their men. No lie everyone sleeps with everyone there. It's disgusting.
I have no idea how many times I have to tell people that I have a boyfriend and I don't need one at work too.
One co-worker actually told me it's fun to cheat on your boyfriend and that I should just do it.
Um, yeah, might be good for you but not me.
I'm not kidding it's like the crazy train dropped off all of these people at my job.
Because they are so miserable they have to have company.
But I am already miserable. I just lost my dad and I am broken and I don't know how to fix it.
Nothing in my life right now makes any sense. I realized how alone I truly am right now.
I just found out who my real friends are. Which I didn't have many to begin with.
There's no one to check up on my anymore except Dave who I never really see much anymore because he's so wrapped up in his new job.
I spend 99% of my time alone.
I'm trying to get out and do more things. On my days off I go to this gorgeous park and read, just so I'm not home and I was doing stuff with Dave on the other day but now he has to work so I guess I get to spend my days off alone now.
My world just seriously crashed down hard around me.
I'm just trying to put the pieces back but I think I lost a few.
- Location:My Couch
- Mood:
exhausted
- Location:BED!
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:Music? What's that? Bed?
And I have to go take a test tomorrow and on the 21st.
And my mind is full.
- Location:AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
- Mood:
stressed - Music:AHHHHHHH!
Not really.
- Location:Dave's bed
- Mood:
awake
And the kicker is!!! I could have used that $5! I forgot that the bus would have given me change, change for the bus but still! I could have used a $20 and still have gotten on the bus! So, that man was really lucky I forgot that!
Hahaha! I spent $3 just to get here because I didn't see my wires!
Buses around here are $1.50.
- Location:the bus
- Mood:
excited - Music:lynyrd skynyrd- the ballard of curtis lowe
Dakota Skye
Right now I really like Hold my Hand by New Found Glory, but that changes fast.
I haven't really read much, I read The Lovely Bones but I hated the end.
- Location:My Desk
- Mood:
sick